Turn Off The Timer

A very dear friend of mine was given a timer by his doctor. Three months to five years, he was told. I suppose in theory that gives you time to put your affairs in order. 

 

But who wants order. Imagine getting to your last day, looking back and only having memories of organizing your life. Or getting to a time when your body stops working at the same time you feel you finally have time to do something. 

Now is the time for living, for doing.  If someone is inconvenienced because you didn't plan well, so be it. I'm sure they will never look back on the time you spent together and wish that it was spent putting your affairs in order. 

Back to work

I hate to admit it, but I breath a small breath of relief to go back to work. It isn't that I don't love my family. This is my routine. And I am very much a creature of habit. 

I don't like the phrase "working mother". I've never met a mother who didn't work. Some if us just have the dubious honor of working outside the home.  This comes with its own set of difficulties, not the least being "Mommy Guilts". I suppose all moms get them, but those I'd us who walk out the door each morning get more then our share. 

I have been our bread winner for twelve and a half years now. This was never by design. I always thought I would stay home with our kids. It just turned out this way. 

Now, don't get me wrong. My husband does a marvelous job with our kids and we are all so blessed to have him. It's still hard to even be sympathetic when he calls to vent about a bad day with our kids. It's not that I feel I could do any better. Sometimes I wish I had the chance. 

Still, I take a little breath of relief to walk out some mornings. I don't think I'll ever get over the guilt of that relief. 

The Beginnings

One night, I sat talking with my sister on the phone. She lives in Colorado and I live in Wyoming, which necessitates long telephone conversations, in which we frequently solve the world's and our own problems. We are adults, we think similarly on somethings, differently on others, but we are able to talk about our opinions, while being respectful of each other. If you'd like to follow some sisters as they explore, explain and engage the world that we live in, then this is the blog for you. We promise to state our opinions respectfully, and if you disagree, we ask you to disagree respectfully in order that we can maintain a good environment on our blog. Come back soon for some actual thoughts!